June 26, 2005

In Need Of... Dedication.

I have recently felt some rather strong conviction about my study habits....
Actually... I've always felt strong conviction about my study habits.
That is... Studying the Bible and with school work and any other time i need to study.
I have no FOCUS. I just fly by the seat of my pants.... Which can be fun, but usually finds me wallowing in huge piles of paper (and guilt) at the last minute.
God has been abundantly gracious to me, making it possible for me to get this far... but i don't want it to be all about me slacking off and God picking up the slack.
So..... again..... feeling convicted.
So..... again..... trying harder.
So..... again..... just not making the cut.
What is it about "dedication" that is just so hard to do??
I have time, i have desire, but i just can't get it together.
I guess the answer is..... try harder, more oftener. :oP
Anyone have any ideas? I'm fresh out.